Is trying hard to be accepted by people who think they are better than you. They string you along because they enjoy your attention. They want to be noticed just for their looks and they think everyone wants to be with them. You exhaust yourself trying to impress them. You take small rejections from them for awhile because you still want to dream about them. But eventually you will
learn you are a
worthless piece of shit around them and they are fake anyway. Finally after rejection hits you square in the face finally you want to avoid this person at all costs. You go through crying spells and depression. Then you start to accept how beautiful you are and go back to
living your life in a way that only makes you happy.